"my zauj"

im really sorry becoz i can't accept u,,

its doesn't mean i dislike u,,
i appreciate your care,,
thanks a lot..

but after i think, its still early,,
if we are couple but u will not be mine some find day?? how??
if we are couple n i will love u so much n lastly frust becoz we are clash,, then i hate u?? how??
our achievement will be down.. so??how about our future??
then we will being enemy,, if we are meet, we will get angry??
i dont want this becoz i want to be fren with you forever..
i love u as my special fren..
im so sorry,,
are u still rmember diz words?
"we are fren ok,, if we are meant to be together,, alhamdulillah.. "
so we are fren,, its up to you,, if u want to couple with another girl..
i didn't mind because u are not mine..

Now, i have closed my heart closely n tightly..
why?? because my heart only for my 'zauj'..
this special heart only for him dat i dont know who r..
i hope 1 day,, he will come n truthfully want me as his zaujah,,
honestly become my 'imam',,
full of blessing from ALLAH, love me until his last 'hayah'
so,, i will keep dis heart n dignity only for my 'zauj'..
"perempuan yang baik utk lelaki yang baik"
dis is the promise from Allah,,.

for the man,,
plis!! dont touch my heart if you're not to be mine..
im not the person who are really strong...
'bukankah hawa diciptakan dari rusuk adam yang bengkok.. Adam lah yang perlu meluruskannya..'

sincerely from,
aini...

tolongla jgn jadi pendendam..

cane nak jadi pemaaf..

tgok je muke baek+comel..

hati penuh dendam..

berdose x aku cbb x maafkan org??(agak2 jwpn da tahu)

bende ni jadikan ak buntu.. cane nk lupekan ape y org da wat kat kite.. sabar kite pun ade batas..

bile mulut cakap da maafkan,, tapi hati penuh benci dendam.. 

nak wat cane??nak suh org tu mlutut baru maafkan?? nape x bole buang jauh2 jer.. 

kan seksa diri namenye?? ~~hm, susahlar~

where is my door now??

iman mmg x kuat..

astaghfirullah,,Ya Allah, bantulah hambamu..

Aku di Uji LaGi~~

arghhhhhhhhhh nak jerit pun tak gune...
da due malam ak x tido siapkan drawing rumah tu... last nite,, ak pun bersengkang mate la tak tido nk siapkn drawing tuh.. tkebil2 mate mgire, mgukur, n byk lagi la.. dgn tekad pasni ak da x nak sentuh,, nak concern kat model rumah atas air n autocad plak..marketing punye wlayah iskandar x siap lg.. 
alhamdulillah,, aku dapat siapkan tym azan subuh tgah berkumandang.. lega sgt~ after solat subuh,, aku pun tggalkan drawing ak atas meja n dttutup ng krtas soaln dgn hrapan takde la pape bnde jatuh atas drawing ak.. ni hasil last nite....

complete!! 2 hari x tido mlm..

then ak pun masuk tido~~ tetibe kul 10 pg ak dgar rumet aku bising2 cter baju dy bsah kene air hujan.. dgn scare spontan ak bgon n ckp,, "ea,,tgkap luar tu tutup kn??lukisan ak!!".. nak nges pun tak gune da... bile aku tgok.. 

 

mmg melalak la aku pg ni.. rmy gak simpati but ape dorang bole tolg??.. faiz cakap,, ade hikmah di sebalik tu..shera pun ckp bnde same.. sume org mmg suruh ak wat balik..pgajaran gak utk ak.. simpan bende pntg lain kali.. so today,, pas je ak mandi,, ak duk lg menghadap papan LK tu.. mkn pun tah ke mane.. mood ak mmg bgang gler!! tah sape rajin bukak tingkap pg2.. x nampk ke lukisan ng laptop ak kat atas meja tu?? nk marah pun x gune.. bnde da jadi.. wani ckp,, redhakan je aini.. yer,, aku tatau mggu ni bape kali ak nges da.. hm,, ak di uji lg.. :'(

last bezday~~

citer bermule dari 0000(3 mei 12)

nape pink eh??

juz call MR ABIT

mulut ak menyanyi kecil lagu 'ku pinang kau dgn bismillah' sambil siapkan assgment taekwondo.. haih, kene anta email cepat2.. tetibe ade y dtg n ckp 'aini,hepy bezday'.. dgn muke sdikit pelik n tkejot ak trus ckp 'ea, bknke 3 mei??'.. so dorg terus malu2 masuk bilik smbil gelak2 coz salah hari..hadiah da bagi,, x bole amek da.. ni la hadiah dari rumet saya..


hari kames bjalan cam bese,, wpun klas abeh tgahari,, ak stay kat libry smpy ptg siapkn esaimen.. pas je bukak puase aritu,, ak trus cyap2 g kelas autocad.. mmg agak penat n letih.. tym kat klas tu mmg ak maen jela.. ak ngantok n letih,, smpy tetido.. ni la pic x de keje kitorang.. kalo esaimen last sem wat rumah idaman,, sem ni plak kene wat dapur gune autocad n wat pelan rumah gune drawing..

aku n shera

gambar kiri : tgh maen sep2 tom2
gambar kiri : drawing rumah,, kire2 jam 5 pagi wktu malaysia.. ( bz mgalahkan
arkitek)
dats nite: aku tido awal,, hm, im waiting 4 someone 2 wish my bday,, is he still rmember?? but in my heart said:"aini jgn nk branganla,, bday dy ko x wish..huh!"..tetibe ade suare lain bisik,, tggu faiz wish ke??haha,, x mungkin dy ingat bday ak..
0000(4 mei 12)-ak tgolek da atas katil,, ttbe je lgu 'today is a fairytale' bbunyi.. BPC alam tipon.. bole dy tnye,, aryni bday ko ea?.. dgn mlas ak jwbla.. a'ah,, ak pakse dy nyanyi,, baru satu ayat,,da kene boo ngan kwn2 dy.. haha,, tetibe dalam gelap pintu bilik tbukak,, hm,, my rumet nyanyi la lgu bday,, n ak ckp,, sok jgn lupe ea,, ak blanje korg kat kfc.. byk plak pastu mcg masuk,, but not from him.. huhu.. wish dpt dlm mmpi kot.. tido jela.. lbey kurg kul 2lbih,, bunyi lg mcg.. oke,, kali ni dr faiz..(ingat lupe da).. he apologise coz he busy study at his fren room's.. n he also apologise coz not have any gift for me.. mmg kalo bday kene bg hdiah ea?.. ak mmg x pnah hrp pun.. i know who r me in his heart..haha,, tacing ke??
da la,, abes cter ak ntok mlm tu,, persoalan sekarang nape aku da x nak sambut bday pasni.. senang cter,, ni bday terakhir ak lar..
episod setrusnya berlaku pd keesokn harinya,, bile ak tgh tido kat bilik shera n i got 1 message.. one of them x dpt join 4 d kfc.. oke x pela ade lg sorg,, but ttbe bler masuk bilik,, rupenye.... pastu aku nanges.. then jadi la satu insiden yang sume tu salah fham n salah sangke hgga sebabkan org y x bsalah kene gak, juge salah satu sebab bday ak terakhir adalah 20 tahun je.. penyesalan aku~

tp ak g gak kfc.. "senyumlah sayang, jangan kau bersedih, sedih selalu"..      gambar kiri : dorang beli pizza n kfc gambar kanan : shera bg mr TOTI.. gambar dorang???

gambar bwh : noen bagi shawl sari.. pos tau.. huhu,, tharu gak... n gambar hadiah yang aku dapat..

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so pasni aku nekad,, inilah besday terakhir dalam hidop aku..besday ke-20.. maafla sape yang wish pasni.. mmg x dlayan,,. ak nk lupekan tarikh ak dlahirkan.. mmg susah kn.. tp kalo kite cube msti boleh.. ak da serik.. yes!!im hate it!